I certainly know that fear about not doing chemo and, because of that, I succumbed to it two different times. The first time, I passed out (for the first time in my long life) and was put in the hospital - I felt as though I would die and did not try it again. Then a year later and two months ago, tried another, this time an oral. It left me with two stage 4 bedsores, one so deep it went to the muscle. Since they came on in less than 24 hours, there is no possibility it was something else. That poison was trying to get out of my body!
In no way, do I think my decision to never touch it again is right for everyone. But I feel great relief now I don't even consider the possibility anymore.
The best to you,
Jennifer
