Apologies to you Loretta. You asked to be written personally and I started to do that and then realized that I really wanted to write the group. And what I want to say is that the thing I have found so great about this chat is that there is no teaching, no preaching. Advice and support when we need it. Love. Compassion.
As for not wanting to live sometimes - gosh, that seems so appropriate. Cancer put me in a wheelchair. Lesson or not, the loss of my ability to walk has been devastating. And sure sometimes I wake up in the morning and think "Well what for?" and then I say a prayer, get of bed, and do the best I can.
And I'm guessing some of us here do the same thing. A day at a time.
Peace to all of us,
Jennifer